Bullying in Cosplay Land: A lot of questions (Part 1/?)

Bullying seems to be an every day occurrence for many people- especially those that in a general society would be labeled as "different". Bullying can happen for every and any reason- from petty things to not wearing a certain brand of shoes to things you can't control such as skin or eye color.

We've all dealt with bullying to some degree in our lives. Among siblings it happens and even as young children, who sometimes don't know better, we would tease someone else. Maybe because we didn't like them, sometimes sadly, because we did. Regardless bullying creates nothing but victims- those of those who are the bullies are victims in their own right of some reason or another to start such a things. And of course those that are on the receiving end of it.

So why is it that in a hobby that's seen as being so "different" to society bullying, shit talking, and general cattiness is so rampant? Some people want to say it's because of the large volume of women in the hobby that causes it to be this way. But surely not all girls constantly trash talk those that are not within' their friend circle (or, dare I say, even ones that act like being friends with?)

Why is this such a problem? People walking around at cons making snide remarks at others dressed as the same character as themselves instead of starting a conversation because you have something in common with each other. Rumors spread, comments are said, tempers flare about anything and everything. From non-realistic notions of "they stole MY character!" to shallow comments of "ugh they're too fat/skinny/ugly/pretty to cosplay that character!" or some monster hybrid of the two. Why do we beat each other down so senselessly when in reality the community of cosplay and conventions hobbies could potentially be so strong if we all could just get along.

Now mind you I don't expect everyone to become friends- I KNOW that such a wish is as real as an air guitar. We don't all have to be friends, maybe we all don't have to get along either, but to be passive about it and just say "I don't like so-and-so." is a lot more healthy for ourselves and our community over the general "X is such a bitch. I hate X!"

To that I ask... why?

Why do you -hate- that person? What have they done that has made you so angry? What have they done to slight you so badly? What have they done that has harmed you in any way?

And at the end of the day is it really so important that you must manifest HATRED, of all feelings, towards them? Was it something so bad that you wholly dislike someone? Even if it was for something that could have been a simple disagreement on how something is made? A fabric choice? A wig color choice? Or maybe they said or did something you didn't like. Is that really merit for HATRED towards someone?

Because in the end that hatred, that anger, that disdain causes people to talk badly about others. To vent their frustrations in emotionally charged verbal exchange with others. And when such things are posted on the internet it will always get back to that person you're talking about. No one likes to be bullied. No one likes to be talked badly about. And if you really put yourself in their place would you talk so badly about them? Would you make the comments about them knowing that your hatred breeds an ugly personality that simply drives people away from you. It a terrible cycle... to be bullied and then bully others in return. No one else can make the decision for you to NOT talk ill of others- you have to do it yourself. Or is having someone as your verbal punching bag really that fun?

And is it really worth it?

New phone!!

I finally got a new phone. This is really weird. I have a smartphone now. My first phone was the Motorola RAZR in magenta (of course~~) and then I switched to the LG Dlite (aka in Korea as the "Lollipop"). But now I finally caved and got myself a smart phone- a VERY smart one at that: the Samsung Galaxy S III!!

I can't say I'm used to it yet though. It feels more like I got a tiny, fancy tablet. I look ridiculous trying to take a picture with it and have a hard time not covering the camera with my finger somehow ~_~;;

And yet I totally love it!! I can do so much! I can quickly reply to people on Twitter or Facebook and also manage my cosplay page from it. I also downloaded Lineplay >_>;; which is pretty much EXACTLY like the "Ameba Pico" game that used to be on Facebook that I played and NO ONE PLAYED WITH ME WHAT THE HELL lol. I also signed up her Hipstergram (Instagram) and downloaded Snapchat and Vine (though I haven't played with it yet.) It allows me to upload videos directly from my phone to Youtube and, honestly, it takes better video than my point and shoot camera!! I've already thought about doing all my vlogs with it though I'm not sure yet how I'd put it on my tripod or if it will record audio any good ^^;;

Regardless I'm happy with the upgrade. I don't usually switch until I find a phone I really love as my electronics are a huge commitment to me. I will have this phone for at least 2-4 years now and I plan to make it work. I know new fancy things will come out even within the next few months but this phone is such an upgrade it's already really damn amazing to me!!

I have yet to learn all the fun little gizmos though and I've already had it for nearly 2 weeks. Oh! I also downloaded the Blogger app :x it's not as nice, nor as easy, as typing things out on my computer but it does give me the opportunity to write things while I'm on the go. Maybe now I can update more? I can be riding the bus somewhere for a long trip and type up and entry and be more productive with my blog :3 The idea is rather exciting to me!!

Now if only my life were interesting enough to always update *laugh*

Book Idea?

I always say this. I need to blog more. I need to vlog more. I need to update more. Why does it feel like time goes by so very fast?

I don't even remember what all could be considered "new" at this point compared to last when I typed up random ramblings. Not much happens these days though- at least not anything positive that is worth posting about. There certainly a lot of negative things going on though ~_~;; but who really wants to read me whining about something? NOOOO ONNNEEEE... probably. Who knows. Voyeurism into another person's problems does do wonders to make one feel better about their own life issues after all.

I've had this idea for a book in my head for a few years now. And when I say a few years I literally mean 4. I keep thinking "this is stupid" but I like the idea a lot. In fact now that I think of it I've had 2 main plots jumbling around in my brain- though they don't go together. They were ideas Brandon and I brain stormed together before he moved to Japan (BTW he graduated just this month! Congrats bro! :D). Him and I were shooting things back and forth and talking about good plot twists and such and we came across these ideas. My mind only slightly elaborates on them so it's still a very basic idea. Last I remember he gave me permission to use them if I ever wrote them as I know I'm the better one when it comes to writing. However if I were to do so he'd totally get tons of credit for it!

Seriously though... I love writing. I like expressing things and telling stories through words. But I feel like my imagination is super rusty. And I worry, a lot, about the idea of actually trying to write a book. I know it takes time, sometimes years and YEARS, to write, edit, publish, etc and I haven't the slightest clue how to go about it all. Do I just start throwin' words down on paper and hope things make sense? Though I'd probably plot things out like characters and such first. Auuughhh!! I don't even know if that's what I'd want to do or if it'd be worth it. Or if it'd even be any GOOD. I just feel the need to create so much lately... *sigh*

I don't know how much longer I'll mull this over or if I'll ever write this idea into something tangible. It'd be nice to but I'm not so sure I believe in myself enough :<

Dream Sky Stake Out: PART 2/2

I got it!! I can't believe it I actually got the items I wanted! ! But before this, let me tell you, there is a funny story about my purchase.

I had woke up about three hours before the shop I'm japan was to open. Having some time to kill I decided to watch more Merlin (my current TV show addiction.) All the while I was still refreshing the page and watching the world clock I had set to Japan time on my phone. I believe I got at least four our five episodes out before the dresses went up on the site. At that time I had refreshed the site one more time and got up to check my phone. According to the clock there was still enough time for one more episode before the store in Japan was supposed to open. However after checking my phone I went back to my computer and upon seeing the screen I started flipping out! THE DRESSES WERE OUT AND I WAS AWAY FROM MY COMPUTER!! CRAP!! I went to sit down and nearly fell out of my chair!! However I was able to catch myself and quickly got to refreshing the other pages I planned to buy things from; while they were loading I went to work adding the jsk I wanted to my cart. The accessories I was a wee bit worried about though as I was going for wrist cuffs and I expected them to sell out quickly. I added: a blue jsk, blue wrist cuffs, navy wrist cuffs, and a navy skirt to my cart. I was only trying for the skirt to see if I could get it however it sold out before checkout- as well as the navy wrist cuffs. But the blue pieces were still there! I was able to pay and then sat anxiously for the confirmation email before I started to celebrate. I knew cancellations after payments happened and, again, I was worried about the wrist cuffs being pulled. But everything cleared and all was well!! *PARTY!!*

Peter had already managed to snag me one of the hair barrettes while pages were being prepared Friday. So although I have to pay extra shipping for that alone to know I got what all I really wanted is OK. Much better than paying scalper prices.

Although, speaking of, I do hope to possibly snag a scrunchy from the US release tomorrow as the more I keep seeing them the cuter I think they are. I might try for a skirt but all the other pieces are going to be grossly over priced ;/ I'm not sure if I like any of the jewelry though as its all plasticy stuff for such a high price... however I have a few hours to decide to what to go for if anything else.

I'm pretty darn excited I was able to do this though. I was seriously worried the site would crap out on me :<

Now I get to sit and wait patiently for my order to be shipped... I'm pretty sure they got at least 100 orders within that 5-10 min window where things were up... crazy.

Dream Sky Stake Out: PART 1/2

Dream sky was supposed to be released today via the international site. Pretty much all the items on the Japanese site are sold out already and oooh they look so lovey!! The international site is wigging out big time though... I suppose that's pretty normal when largely anticipated items are slated to drop.

I stalked the site all night via my phone and had a couple friends watching the site as well in case things went up while I was at work. I'm so grateful they did this T-T and yet I feel bad since there was no action *laugh* However Peter WAS successful in snagging me one of the hair barrettes I wanted!! Even though they were only prepping the pages he tried to pay for it because "why not" and it let him through!! At first I was kind of upset because now I'll have to pay shipping for just that one items and even more shipping for whatever items I may manage to get. However as I thought of it more I knew that trying to find the thing second hand or from girls that decided it wasn't what they wanted would have resulted in an inflated price anyway ~_~;;

So whateves!!

I'm going after the JSK in blue. Navy seems to be the most popular color among most girls- I do agree it looks stunning! But something about it bothers me at the same time. The stars and their tails are very strange colors. They're all minty, blue and purple. There seems to not be a single drop of pink on the dress so it tends to have a much more "cool" tone/look to it. It somewhat bothers me as the design still has a pink star button on the strap!! Why would they do this?! Also I'm pretty sure I don't like this go around of the... lilac color (it really doesn't look lavender to me at all.) The lilac colorway has the same star coloring as the navy color. Whereas the sax blue and regular blue have pinks and yellows. Very interesting changes!!

I still would kill for the navy from the first release. The color falls between the re-release's blue and navy colors and I really do love it! But it's -thee- most coveted dress from that series. I had a girl offer to sell me hers for $600... yeah no. That's more than I paid for my brand new STILL-WITH-TAGS Sugary Carnival set. I love the dress a lot but not $600 a lot.

But. BUT. Another girl offered me her lavender one for a much nicer price; I'm pretty sure I'll take it because it's pretty freaking adorable :x


Anyway it seems as though AP is not going to release the dresses just yet. CGL says it'll be Monday Japan time so I'll at least have a day off before I'm back to stalking around on the compie. Good luck to anyone else whom hopes to get in on this release!! I have a feeling it's going to sell crazy fast!!

Second release sax blue vs first release 

Second release blue, first release navy, second release navy

second release "lavender" vs first release lavender

Dream Sky re-release

It's happening. They're re-releasing dream sky. This is legit happening!! :'D I wonder what changes will overall be made (if any.) I see that there is no pink colorway this time and black seems to be left out. All blue toned colors this go-around! Sax, royal blue, navy, and an interesting looking purple/lavender that I hope is an odd printing in the scan I saw because wow it looks kind of ugly... Dare I attempt to even try to get it? Dare I...? Yeah I'M GUNNA TRY!! (good luck to me~~) *DREAM BIG*

BAD costumes!

Late night vloggin~

Non-print lolita doesn't get enough love! (Chelsea Regimental)

It's very common for certain prints from lolita brands to get hyped up to the point of an instant sell out, and in some rare cases re-releases. For example Sugary Carnival, Chess Chocolate, and Day Dream Carnival have all resulted in such events!

However non print dresses don't seem to get the attention they do deserve! So many of the "plain" dresses Angelic Pretty releases between it's big prints are so lovely! But you almost never hear months-in-advance announcements; or people freaking out about them to the point of staying up all night to make sure they get a sliver of a chance to buy it.

However, just the same, they do seem to fly "off the shelves" (so to speak) when they do come up. So why don't brands give their non print dresses as much love and attention as prints? Maybe they know they'll sell well already? *laugh*

I recently was able to score Chelsea Regimental off of Mbok for a REALLY good price. This is one dress that I was actively seeking out but never thought someone would sell for a various reason (timeless, versatile, etc). All the pictures I saw of it made it look so lovely... but in person? OH MY GLOB. This dress is BEAUTIFUL!!

The detailing is immense on this! Though it's a simple stripe woven fabric the choice of colors work very well together- a mix of chocolate brown, milktea, and light blue stripes bring a little extra accent to the pallet. The gold stripes woven in add a pretty, although subtle shimmer unless in certain light- then they really show well! The fabric itself is extremely soft- which somewhat surprises me due to the mylar woven in as it's generally something that can become itchy. However when I was feeling the fabric the gold is fine enough that it does not irritate my skin in the least bit :)

The construction of the dress is superb as well. The bodice has a mock vest piece in the middle that hides the skirt seam though being fully sewn in itself- I will admit that sewing such a thing is rather tricky unless you're used to holding fabric bits back while sewing (I usually end up smashing my finger in the machine when I do this lol.) The back of the collar has a button so it's a bit easier to get on and off. The cross straps in the back are removable and can also be flipped over; one side has the milktea colored stripes while the other has blue ones. A small detail which can help balance an outfit. I prefer to leave them attatched though as I like the extra detailing they have to offer.

The back lacing is done with actual eyelets instead of lace, ribbon, or elastics. I like how this makes it feel almost classic in its attempt although the dress may still be classified as "sweet". The ribbon is very high quality as well and has no damage to it. I honestly wonder if the girl I bought this from ever wore it!

The extra lace detailing going down the skirt is one of my favorite touches as well. It's a small detail that's easy to lose in the pattern but adds a nice surprise when you find it.

This dress is, again, seriously very lovely. If I had a chance to buy it in another colorway I most certainly would. Everything about this is lovely and I really did feel amazing wearing it! It has the charm and magic of lolita that I love!

And of course the cat was curious!
"This thing you're wearing smells strange!"

Cat vs Apple

My roommate's cat is a unique character in and of her own XD

[Cosplay Progress] End of Triangle Ranka

With Sakura Con very swiftly approaching I've just FINALLY gotten my poop in a group and started working on one of my cosplay outfits I'll be wearing that still needed to be made! I'm bringing magical girl Mami (from Madoka Magica) and Stocking's default lolita dress (Panty and Stocking) but... TO JUST NOW START ON A COSPLAY.

I'm crazy. I know.

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I really honestly pity Liz more though as her Sheryl outfit is hell compared to Ranka's; We're making the "End of Triangle" outfits from the 3rd Macross Frontier movie.

So far I've gotten a good start on things. I spent a good deal of time already on the top and have all the layers stitched together. I'm trying to work on the navy colored parts first so I can efficiently sew things without having to switch out thread/bobbins too often. Also the navy bits are, in large part, the bases for everything else; maybe I'm just lazy but to me this is the best way to go about things.

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I bought gloves a long LONG time ago for a Steel Angel Kurumi cosplay that was nearly the perfect color- they're still a bit too blue compared to the fabric I chose. I was thinking about trying to dye them down a bit with black though to dull out the blue. I'll have to get the dye though. The gloves just need a yellow cuff added and they'll be done other wise. Ranka has these weird gloves that end part way up her thumb (about an inch from the wrist) but I didn't cut them down all the way yet so I had plenty of fabric to stitch the cuff to.

The bracelet was found on etsy! It's from the 80's. I searched EVERY STORE in Lloyd center and every Target, Fred Meyer, and well... honestly any store I went in to that had a jewelry section I searched and searched for a PLAIN translucent bangle like this. Despite this green being a color that is in style this season I could not find anything remotely close!
Not even just a green bangle that didn't have some sort of crazy design all on it. This really was a seriously wonderful find. Thank you internet!!

I wear the weirdest things
when I sew LOL
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As for the corset top, at this point, I need to press the seams flat and add the boning in. Not sure if I have enough boning as it is but I'll be able to add what I do have on hand. If I end up running out I'll work on the belt piece (I drafted a pattern so far but nothing else) and will also have her arm bands to make. Well... I made the blue base for the one on her upper arm. But her wrist one still need to be made. I feel like that one will be a lot easier to make though as it won't involved curves ~_~;;

I'm waiting on some metal heart findings to come in the mail to make her necklace and ring out of. I'm also waiting on the gold studs! I had bought a bunch earlier but they ended up being too small ;-; The studs need to be as wide as my choker- these were the nicest small gold buckles I could come across that weren't the standard ugly Drtiz ones. I don't like their color of gold either! It's a very cold yellow that just looks cheap. For Ranka I'm trying to stick with a warmer gold so everything actually ends up looking to have a brass tint to them. I think it compliments the navy blue a lot better than a harsh, bright gold. /Gold Rant (lol)

I'm crazy... still... I know this. I think once I have the corset top all done and put together everything else will somewhat fall in to place. I still need to figure out shoes because she has a lightning bolt on the heel... I'm not really sure I'll be able to find such shoes in time. I'm also debating on finding a pair and molding my own heel shape onto it. I have such a problem with high heels being comfortable that I rue ever having to order them online :( Really hate having to... UGH.

This should not have taken as long
as it did ~_~;;
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I think the part I'm most excited for on this costume is the giant butt cape I get :3 I'll probably go pick up MORE fabric for that honestly- I want it to be huge and anime-like! It'll flow as I waaalllkkk and I'll probably never stop messing with it LOL. I'm glad this costume will have a "fun" part on it like this... seriously. Sometimes wearing a costume is just so uncomfortable that it's nice to have something you can be silly with :)

*SCREAMS*

I HAVE ONLY 15 DAYS UNTIL I LEAVE!!

Chess Choco-WAT!!!

I did it! I won!! I won the Chess Chocolate Jabost JSK in mint finally! :'D

I had been stalking auctions for a good while despite Brandon having contacted Closet Child about the dresses (They hadn't called him back yet to tell him they had stock or not.) So when the auction popped up I decided to bid on it :x the price started rather low for this color/style (¥10,000) and it didn't raise up very far at all!! I think over all I spent around ¥20,500 on it! Which I consider a STEAL since it was A) Cheaper than the initial release price & B) Cheaper than I'll ever find it from a second hand selling in the states! They'll usually charge around $350 (¥33,000) for it >_<

Sooooo I'm excited!! Though I went a bit crazy with the orders. I was also able to get Royal Queen mint OTKs for only ¥1,000 and the ivory skirt for around ¥9300...

I also found a bunch of Sailor Moon musical VHS tapes for supa cheap >_>;; so to grow my tiny collection (of mostly Miyuki) I bought them~! All first stage! :D There were 8 in all.

I also noticed the person who dicked me out of the mint head bow has been trying to sell it WITH their bustier dress. Would it be crazy/stupid of me to buy it? LOL... I'm not a huge fan of the bustier dress honestly but it WAS the one I first initially liked when I saw the collection. Who knows? Maybe I'll like it. If not I'll sell it off. I'll wait until I get paid this Friday though before I even bid. If it's still up *shrug* I'll probably go for it ^^;;

*spazzes*

One down, two to go! (Dream Sky & Sugary special~)

"Who knows how to make love stay?"

Tom Robbins quotes always come to mind when I think about "love". Particularly ones from his book Still Life With Woodpecker He's honestly a fantastic writer and I should pick up more of his books as well and reread the ones I have already read. I suggest you check out this author! He's great!

“Who knows how to make love stay?
1. Tell love you are going to Junior's Deli on Flatbush Avenue in Brooklyn to pick up a cheesecake, and if loves stays, it can have half. It will stay.
2. Tell love you want a momento of it and obtain a lock of its hair. Burn the hair in a dime-store incense burner with yin/yang symbols on three sides. Face southwest. Talk fast over the burning hair in a convincingly exotic language. Remove the ashes of the burnt hair and use them to paint a moustache on your face. Find love. Tell it you are someone new. It will stay.
3. Wake love up in the middle of the night. Tell it the world is on fire. Dash to the bedroom window and pee out of it. Casually return to bed and assure love that everything is going to be all right. Fall asleep. Love will be there in the morning.”

 ~Tom Robbins      

But how DOES one make love stay? One first has to ask how you define "love"- as this is something not all people view the same. Some people see love as self-sacrificing; where you give up everything that is "you" to either support the "we" aspect or the other person. Other's see it as a financial support and end up throwing gifts or money at their loved ones. Sometimes love gets twisted and strange but honestly so many people express love so differently that you can't really know how someone will love you unless you receive love from that person.

Personally I find myself giving the type of "nurturing" or parental love. I want to take care of the people whom are dear to me- making them food, helping them with things, etc. Just generally taking care of them and helping their lives become a little easier if possible. A little bit more comfortable.

But this also to me is a flawed love. As it's a love most people receive from their own mothers. So it's been taken advantage of a lot by people before. Yes I do this with friends, and no I don't expect things in return for it (aside from maybe a "thank you" or two.) But, generally speaking, people seem so used to this type of "love" that more often than not it's taken for granted. Demanding a more showy type of love from me will not net you that as that's not how I express it. I do buy gifts for people; usually in a sense of "OMG this reminded me of you!" But it will end up being something like a silly Star Wars trinket for someone or something Pokemon. I bought a mini plush set of Animal Crossing before for a friend since it wasn't a whole lot and I know she wanted a KK plush really bad (he was included.) I expected nothing in return because her shrieks of delight were enough to make my day.

But you want me to do WHAT now? You want me to dress how? You want me to change THAT about myself? Demands demands demands. People never seem happy with what they have- even if it's the best thing they've ever had.

How do you make love stay?

But what kind of love is it that you want?

MOAR ANGER- and a Remedy For It~!

This week as not been my week. This week has not been acting in my favor one bit. But it also seems as though I'm not the only one having such problems (Anger filled Monday, Super sleepy Tuesday, Bad news Wednesday, etc etc.) But what happened to me yesterday afternoon almost took the cake on the rage-o-meter scale.

I got boned out of my ultimate dream dress- part 2!

I was informed that someone on the comm sales had posted -the- dress for sale. The price wasn't too bad either! Someone had previously commented about PM-ing the seller but I figured I'd give it a shot as well. I messaged them and informed them I'd be able to pay in full and to let me know if that would work out. I had the money... I would be nearly penniless until next Friday but sometimes I feel it can be worth it (stupidly lol.)

But I woke up after my weird noon-time sleep to a message from the seller that the dress was already on payment plan and she apologized.

So wait... someone doing a payment plan got precedence over the person willing to pay in full that day? I was honestly confused and, honestly, by now it really just felt like salt being rubbed into my wounds (especially after losing out on said dress once before.)

I went to work mad and stewed about it for nearly my whole shift. My boyfriend had even asked me "Would you give up the black version for this one?" and I simply said yes to him. No questions. I think at that point he understood why it had miffed me so much.

However towards the end of my shift I was just kinda of mopey and figured being angry did no good. I talked a good deal with some friends and listened to music to forget about it for some time. I mean come on! It's just a dress right? But it's also a hobby. Like Pokemon! Except I don't want to "catch 'em all"; I want to build a small, strong team of AWESOME.

 Now the remedy happened a few hours after I got home. All is quiet- after all it's the butt crack of night time (4am). And I decided to see what my awesome buddy Brandon was up to in Japan-land so I called him up on Skype.
Turns out he had called Closet Child over the weekend about Dream Sky and Chess Chocolate and they're shipping some dresses in from their other stores for him to take a look at! :D This seriously perked me up SO FAST. At this point I was OK not getting the Special Sugary dress- upset a bit still but I will obtain it eventually *determination!!*!
I sent him an e-mail with the pictures of the exact colors and styles I was looking for. He'll go in probably sometime Monday or Tuesday of next week to check them out, talk stock, pricing, and check the dresses for damages and stains (to further talk price about). He said he'd take pictures but I told him that Closet Child actually doesn't allow it. I suggested he bring his girlfriend along as she is also into lolita and will be able to asses the dresses as well- plus it might not be so weird for him to be in a store full of frills LOL.
He commented that he had no problem with going there as I have dragged him to the fabric store many times- which however also works in his favor as he'll be able to better spot any problems with the dresses. I further told him it's OK if they do have slight damages or stains as I don't really care much and can fix most construction problems with the dresses themselves.

So it perked my day up really well :) I'm feeling a lot better about the events of the day as it probably all happened for a very good reason. Had I bought Sugary my bank account would be near nil until Friday and thus I'd be unable to send him the money for the dresses/shipping. But now I'm good~
I still need to do my taxes too! :3 more monies there~


In other news it looks like an 80% chance I'll have to work Saturday. I plan to go in early if I wake up in time so I can milk the over time without having to stay super super late @_@;; I'm -trying- to be happy about that one. But there are 2 meet ups happening this weekend (one each day) and it may cause me to miss both. Again. *sigh*

Just keep swimming~

iMAD

So Mad  D: ugh!
I was browsing around on Mbok the other, which has become a daily thing I do to try and find certain dresses, and I saw a mint Chess Chocolate head bow (aka "Alice band") going for only 2000 yen! With the conversion as it is now It was just under $24usd... "what a steal" I though. I saw an ivory one sell for nearly $80usd on the Livejournal comm sales so I was excited!

I contacted Japonica and did the whole, order request, money request, send money, etc thing you do with a shopping service; and then I waited. I waited to see when they bid and did a happy dance! I then waited as the auction closed as well with my winning bid~ woo!
So excited!! :D I went to bed very very happy~ one step closer to getting the set!

But I woke up the next morning to an email from Japonica... it said the seller canceled the auction.

but...

but... I..

bu...

BUT I WON IT.

I'm so peeved. Seriously!! Mbok is just making me more and more angry >:/ This is the 2nd time I've had someone cancel an auction AFTER it ended on me. The previous time I wasn't so mad but now? With the head bow... :( The seller still has their dress up and now they have updated the pictures to include the head bow as well! I'd buy it however it's the bustier-style dress and I don't really care for it (and it seems to be the only version anyone is presently selling.)

Blaaaaahhh!!